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janestarzThe Dreamwalkers party was fun yesterday. I introduced his guests to Nepenthe and thereby good music (instead of trance *shiver*). Saw Cris again, which must have been ages, he bought me beer. And Miss Sheep (we all know miss Sheep, don’t we?) thought my gothy dress was nice and my ring was nice and that I was her new rolemodel ieeheeeheeeeeee!
*Vomit*
After that party I went to the So What because I had promised Emile a look of my gothy dress, and even Sergio thought it was a lovely dress. Why, ofcourse, because it is! I played a game of pool (no, two!) with Koen but he was too shy to say one word to me. He did shake my hand afterwards even though it was 1-1.
Emile drove me home and said he would like to see my room, so I took him inside, and showed him the room. Then he wanted to see my drawings. And he wanted to cuddle. Now Emile is a very sweet person. There’s no other word for it. But I don’t want a relationship. Last time I had a relationship with someone that sweet I lost interest. So I was thinking: all I would want to ‘have’ him for is a cuddle and another cuddle, some physical contact, and that’s it. Like with Tjerk.
Now that got me to consider the other boys I fancy, I actually have 2 on my wish list…Koen, who is too shy to make a move and I’m afraid he’ll run away screaming and hide underneath a table if I were to make a move. And Bastiaan, who has the cutest smile, and the purdiest hair, and is guitar god. But what do I want him for?
*Sigh* I thought I was going the right way, but I’m afraid that I’m back where I started when I broke up with Jan: Swearing off the men because I think they really don’t have much to offer to me. Blah. I’m sure they all are fantastic guys and all but I think ‘single’ will be my status for a while.
I’m off to do more administration, got a pile 3 metres high, I tell you!
*Vomit*
After that party I went to the So What because I had promised Emile a look of my gothy dress, and even Sergio thought it was a lovely dress. Why, ofcourse, because it is! I played a game of pool (no, two!) with Koen but he was too shy to say one word to me. He did shake my hand afterwards even though it was 1-1.
Emile drove me home and said he would like to see my room, so I took him inside, and showed him the room. Then he wanted to see my drawings. And he wanted to cuddle. Now Emile is a very sweet person. There’s no other word for it. But I don’t want a relationship. Last time I had a relationship with someone that sweet I lost interest. So I was thinking: all I would want to ‘have’ him for is a cuddle and another cuddle, some physical contact, and that’s it. Like with Tjerk.
Now that got me to consider the other boys I fancy, I actually have 2 on my wish list…Koen, who is too shy to make a move and I’m afraid he’ll run away screaming and hide underneath a table if I were to make a move. And Bastiaan, who has the cutest smile, and the purdiest hair, and is guitar god. But what do I want him for?
*Sigh* I thought I was going the right way, but I’m afraid that I’m back where I started when I broke up with Jan: Swearing off the men because I think they really don’t have much to offer to me. Blah. I’m sure they all are fantastic guys and all but I think ‘single’ will be my status for a while.
I’m off to do more administration, got a pile 3 metres high, I tell you!
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Date: 2002-07-09 03:51 am (UTC)Man that sucks.
Heehee.
And don't wonder why you want men, it would be weird if you wouldn't want a lovelife.
But being single is good.
And I actually wonder if I am still single....
Am I?
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Date: 2002-07-09 04:23 am (UTC)* kommmaarkommaarkommaar *
Why don't men call?
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Date: 2002-07-09 04:37 am (UTC)They are not logical like that I guess.
And when they DO call they are the kind of guy
who wants to hold your hand all night.
Yo! If I want a baby I get a baby, if I want a man I get a man.... that didn't make sense right?
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Date: 2002-07-09 04:51 am (UTC)Re:
Date: 2002-07-09 05:01 am (UTC)no subject
On your knees!
*Evil Grin*
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Date: 2002-07-09 05:44 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-07-09 06:02 am (UTC)He makes me smile and he hugs me. It's a songtext from K's Choice too by the by.
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Date: 2002-07-09 06:14 am (UTC)isn't it good to have someone that makes you smile?
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And when I think of Mr. Guitargod's smile I get al mushy inside.
That didn't come out the way I wanted it to
I feel all warm and fuzzy.
Kristel and Emile and Bart are going to hook me up with some dude named Vincent though. Really curious who that is...
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Date: 2002-07-09 06:45 am (UTC)Isn't that like euh, weird?
Anyway. Vincent. I'll ask Sander about this.
Yes indeed.
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Date: 2002-07-09 06:53 am (UTC)[which I can anyway, nobody needs to be looking for a girlfriend to be afraid of me....*Evil Grin*]
and that he had long hair onto his shoulders. He might even be long enough to be able to see my face... *smirk*
But it is pretty weird that Emile likes me that much. I hope it's nothing serious but just the occasional 'looking for warmth' thing.
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Date: 2002-07-09 07:08 am (UTC)I don't think there is a wrong time to call me... in this case.
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Date: 2002-07-09 07:14 am (UTC)I guess 5 o'clock in the morning can be a wrong time to send me a message but we're talking about someone I really fancy!
oh sigh. Insecurity is awefull
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Date: 2002-07-09 07:20 am (UTC)send him a message saying "Call me" or "I want to have hot steamy..."
er....
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Date: 2002-07-09 07:25 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-07-09 07:27 am (UTC)did I say that out loud?
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Date: 2002-07-09 06:56 am (UTC)Well, I decided not to wear my gothy dress on wednesday only when I was showering before leaving the house (luckily before *grin*). So I wore it only on Thursday. And Emile was there indeed. What a relief.
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Date: 2002-07-09 07:00 am (UTC)There were some rather good looking men at that bar this thursday.
Yes indeed, my good JaneStarz. But playing pool while wearing a gothy dressy is not very sexy... :)
Not that I looked sexy, but at least everyone could take a long look at my undersized boobs (I hate when I realise this the day after!)
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Date: 2002-07-09 07:09 am (UTC)Does the word * inkijk * ring a bell?
And since I am 1.90 metres, I have to bend over quite deep at a pooltable...
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Date: 2002-07-09 07:10 am (UTC)I am seriously doubting it is.
I mean I hate it when I find out I had "inkijk" the night after!
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Date: 2002-07-09 07:17 am (UTC)...when you are out cold lying on your bed waiting for him to go home or for you to fall asleep.
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Date: 2002-07-09 07:19 am (UTC):)
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Date: 2002-07-09 07:28 am (UTC)