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The Dreamwalkers party was fun yesterday. I introduced his guests to Nepenthe and thereby good music (instead of trance *shiver*). Saw Cris again, which must have been ages, he bought me beer. And Miss Sheep (we all know miss Sheep, don’t we?) thought my gothy dress was nice and my ring was nice and that I was her new rolemodel ieeheeeheeeeeee!
*Vomit*
After that party I went to the So What because I had promised Emile a look of my gothy dress, and even Sergio thought it was a lovely dress. Why, ofcourse, because it is! I played a game of pool (no, two!) with Koen but he was too shy to say one word to me. He did shake my hand afterwards even though it was 1-1.
Emile drove me home and said he would like to see my room, so I took him inside, and showed him the room. Then he wanted to see my drawings. And he wanted to cuddle. Now Emile is a very sweet person. There’s no other word for it. But I don’t want a relationship. Last time I had a relationship with someone that sweet I lost interest. So I was thinking: all I would want to ‘have’ him for is a cuddle and another cuddle, some physical contact, and that’s it. Like with Tjerk.
Now that got me to consider the other boys I fancy, I actually have 2 on my wish list…Koen, who is too shy to make a move and I’m afraid he’ll run away screaming and hide underneath a table if I were to make a move. And Bastiaan, who has the cutest smile, and the purdiest hair, and is guitar god. But what do I want him for?
*Sigh* I thought I was going the right way, but I’m afraid that I’m back where I started when I broke up with Jan: Swearing off the men because I think they really don’t have much to offer to me. Blah. I’m sure they all are fantastic guys and all but I think ‘single’ will be my status for a while.
I’m off to do more administration, got a pile 3 metres high, I tell you!
*Vomit*
After that party I went to the So What because I had promised Emile a look of my gothy dress, and even Sergio thought it was a lovely dress. Why, ofcourse, because it is! I played a game of pool (no, two!) with Koen but he was too shy to say one word to me. He did shake my hand afterwards even though it was 1-1.
Emile drove me home and said he would like to see my room, so I took him inside, and showed him the room. Then he wanted to see my drawings. And he wanted to cuddle. Now Emile is a very sweet person. There’s no other word for it. But I don’t want a relationship. Last time I had a relationship with someone that sweet I lost interest. So I was thinking: all I would want to ‘have’ him for is a cuddle and another cuddle, some physical contact, and that’s it. Like with Tjerk.
Now that got me to consider the other boys I fancy, I actually have 2 on my wish list…Koen, who is too shy to make a move and I’m afraid he’ll run away screaming and hide underneath a table if I were to make a move. And Bastiaan, who has the cutest smile, and the purdiest hair, and is guitar god. But what do I want him for?
*Sigh* I thought I was going the right way, but I’m afraid that I’m back where I started when I broke up with Jan: Swearing off the men because I think they really don’t have much to offer to me. Blah. I’m sure they all are fantastic guys and all but I think ‘single’ will be my status for a while.
I’m off to do more administration, got a pile 3 metres high, I tell you!
