So much pondering
Dec. 23rd, 2002 11:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
janestarzNirvana was on mtv yet again. I suppose there's some anniversary (so many years after Kurt's death or something) but I never was much into Nirvana. Back then I cared what my mother thought of my music...I wish it had been different.
Kurt's throatsongs took me back to Thursdaynight...
My girl, my girl
don't lie to me
tell me where did you sleep last night
Also I saw a movie with Kevin Kline (amongst other actors) and it lively reminded meof the fact that life is too short to be depressed. I should be enjoying every little gift this life is. Breathing as usual helps.
Bought a necklace in Rotterdam with a half moon on it. I thought I bought it for Formanterra but right now I'm thinking what subconscious urge there might have been.
His voice is still ringing in my ears, with Nirvana and Kurt, but his face is already fading. Of all my senses, touch and smell and hearing I remember well, but my eyesight always fails me. At night I'm half-blind and photo's must bring back faces.
I can vividly remember what he smells like, what his hair feels like and how it was to lie in his arms...but not his face. Already.
Kurt's throatsongs took me back to Thursdaynight...
My girl, my girl
don't lie to me
tell me where did you sleep last night
Also I saw a movie with Kevin Kline (amongst other actors) and it lively reminded meof the fact that life is too short to be depressed. I should be enjoying every little gift this life is. Breathing as usual helps.
Bought a necklace in Rotterdam with a half moon on it. I thought I bought it for Formanterra but right now I'm thinking what subconscious urge there might have been.
His voice is still ringing in my ears, with Nirvana and Kurt, but his face is already fading. Of all my senses, touch and smell and hearing I remember well, but my eyesight always fails me. At night I'm half-blind and photo's must bring back faces.
I can vividly remember what he smells like, what his hair feels like and how it was to lie in his arms...but not his face. Already.
