Troubled sleeps - to the readers of this journal - concerning Aisha.

[janestarz]

The night before last I couldn't sleep. I was tired but also very stressed out about something. While talking I found out what it was exactly. The truth is that with all these changes in Dolle Griet and pasje I have been quite stressed.

There are a couple of good reasons why Aisha/pasje is no longer a part of Dolle Griet. I will not repeat them here for the public to see. Ragar and I made this discicion together and think it is the right one. We want to build Dolle Griet to a nice business, devoting at least three days a week to it.

The sad thing is that though Aisha said at the meeting we had about this, that she understood, in her livejournal I read things that hurt me. I realize perfectly well that journals are the privilige of the writer (they write them for themselves and not for anyone else), and therefor I find it strange to read in her journal that I or we apparantly hurt Aisha a lot. Especially when I see that she doesn't want or dares to write me personally about this.

I think it is sad that she feels this way about it, and that she doesn't want to tell me to my face. I will not sling mud at her, or her company. That is not the way the world works. I'm just sad about it.

When, after talking about half an hour to an hour about this in the dark comfortable bedroom, I realised this, I felt better.
I hope that we can still be collegues of different companies - and not competitors.

Comments

[sna.livejournal.com]

Since I am pretty much in the middle I will say little either way. You can either try to open communication and try to talk about it, either reaching a fragile neutrality or some semblance of friendly relations. Or you can do nothing, and it'll probly get worse.
Perhaps you'll both read this. Perhaps just Jane. I care little either way. I just think it a shame that so many larpers have grievances here and there which prevent them from having fun. Or costs me good people.
I'm scarcely the expert on interhuman relations, but I do know that avoidance will only produce a lot of awkward moments, especially with both parties concerned here in the same business. And you'll probly run into eachother at events.
And of course there is the ego side of me here, the one side who really can't be arsed to being looked at with the neck for ordering from either company. And since you have a lot mutual friends this could be an issue for both of you.

Sna

[janestarz.livejournal.com]

I can say little either. I know Aisha isn't coming to SR because of me, but I can't for the life of me see that we actually have an argument - after all, she's not communicating in any way, except for remarks in her journal.
I will not let her attitude keep me away from live roleplay events, but I will forsake going to her birthday. Some strange feeling tells me she doesn't want to see me there.