Monday mornings are my enemies

[janestarz]

I've been calling around a bit, and apparantly the student-teacher relationships nowadays continue to exist by e-mail alone. I did speak to a Dean of the College of Utrecht, and he told me that there might be a possibility for me to enter into their third year of journalism, if I have my points and all that. If the second year of Ede is less sophisticated (I myself would call it fucking antique, but that's just the clear influence of the church I am referring to mostly) I will be able to begin in the second year. Main objection: I need my propedeuse.

I'm not saying I am going to do this. I've been demotivated from studying for about four months now, and even though the effects on my brain are clear (winter depression, blahness, etc. I've always been tough to motivate) it's about time I get cracking on something again. And I feel the gratitude of being able to go to school wash over me again. That's good. Now all I need to do is hang on to that feeling, stretch it out so it will last, and transmogrify it into motivation.

February 14 is the first open house of the College of Utrecht. I might be able to make an appointment with another dean (who handles students with names N-Z), and speak things over.

In other news, Malor celebrated his birthday yesterday!

After a lot of housework, NoKey and I watched Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon. Great movie! And now I've got to run, to get my hair cut. It's my bi-annual appointment.

Comments

[coen.livejournal.com]

Studying can be a pain in the ass.
I hope you succeed in finding some joy in your studies again.

[janestarz.livejournal.com]

What do you mean "again"?
I've read back quite some old posts (nov 2001 till june 2002) and I found that the main theme of my journal was something like "I hate my roommate" "I wish I was as cool as Tommycee" and "I hate this school, and it makes me want to bang my head into the wall and throw stuff at people."

Ofcourse, this can be translated as 1) the bitch's got a problem, she wants to kill herself and take the house along with her. 2) I need to find out who I really am, and tc's cool, we hang out a lot. 3) I hate this school, and it makes me want to bang my head into the wall and throw stuff at people.

Going to college is just the thing to do. Especially if you want a job that pays you good money so that you can larp at occasions, and do as you please. If I quit now, I'll be lucky to be a receptionist (which would bore the fuck out of me as history has taught me).

[coen.livejournal.com]

I've read about a lot of things you didn't like about your school and your roommates. That's true.
But I was under the impression that you did like your studying journalisme. Maybe I was wrong about that.
I hoped you like studying journalisme so well that it made up for stupid roommates and conservative teachers.

But when I read: "I hate this school, and it makes me want to bang my head into the wall and throw stuff at people." I must say that sounds pretty serious. More serious than I realised.

About Tommy Cee: I don't know her, but from what I've read she's very different from you, so comparing her to you may not be very usefull. Why would you need to be as cool as she is? I think you're cool enough as it is.
Sorry, skip that last line. What I feel about you is not important, what matters is how you feel about you.
So, without any judgment from me, let me ask you what you think:
What does TommyCee have to make her cool that you don't have? What is it in her attitude, or in her lifestyle, or in her skills, that you feel you should have too, but don't have?

[janestarz.livejournal.com]

Two years back, I was searching who I was. I wanted to be one of the cool kids. Didn't we all? Tommycee has helped me there, I have to admit. And living with her for a year was worth all the trouble we had over that appartment.

[coen.livejournal.com]

Didn't we all?
I think we all did. Yeah, I've tried pretty hard to be one of the cool kids.
Whether I ever succeeded or not I don't know.
I know that some people think I'm pretty cool.
But I don't know if being regarded as cool by some counts as official coolness.

Anyway, the point is: yes, I did go through a phase of working very hard to be cool. And I think everyone did.

[sna.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Jane.

Ow, and thanks to you I've also got the journal thing. You know where to find me ;-)

Glad you are planning on doing the school thingie again. I know what you feel... remind me to tell you about the HR&O when you are around.

[janestarz.livejournal.com]

I'll be befriending you as soon as I've finished this comment. And Sna'tje? Why the selarit pic? We made such good pics of Xandos...besides, he rocks and all that.