Concerning exams
Apr. 10th, 2003 03:53 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
janestarzThe words seemed to swim in front of my eyes. I was just staring at the paper and my eyes went blank, trying to look beyond it, trying to see what was beyond the paper. If there was anything beyond it, I couldn't see it anyway.
I wonder why I still try making these tests. It's not like I pass any of them.
Dad says "maybe you should start studying" but there's so much more to do that is more fun than studying.
Which might exactly be the problem.
When I sit here, listening to the elderyears, quoting names of subjects I can't believe I'll ever like that. I mean, I don't like the idea of going on internship any more than the idea of stopping college.
Deja vu. The second one today. I wonder if it means anything. (like I always do with these deja's).
Tonight I get out again, for a weekend. And then Sunday, it'll all be over and I have to cope again. Coping isn't fun. The cold camping at Shiverz won't be fun either but at least it's a break from this.
Hm.
I've got a new userpic.
I wonder why I still try making these tests. It's not like I pass any of them.
Dad says "maybe you should start studying" but there's so much more to do that is more fun than studying.
Which might exactly be the problem.
When I sit here, listening to the elderyears, quoting names of subjects I can't believe I'll ever like that. I mean, I don't like the idea of going on internship any more than the idea of stopping college.
Deja vu. The second one today. I wonder if it means anything. (like I always do with these deja's).
Tonight I get out again, for a weekend. And then Sunday, it'll all be over and I have to cope again. Coping isn't fun. The cold camping at Shiverz won't be fun either but at least it's a break from this.
Hm.
I've got a new userpic.
